The desire for self-improvement is a cornerstone of human civilization. Most religions are built around some form of it. Benjamin Franklin was obsessed with it, even if he wasn't exactly the most adherent to the maxims of Poor Richard. Rows of books in book stores are devoted to the subject, most with "can't fail" plans. And ever the perennial optimist, I strive to improve myself.
Unfortunately, I can't say that I am successful in my self-improvement. Whether it is being more fearless, improving my health, or improving my work ethic, I just can't seem to quite get there. Sure, I have a success here and there, but far too often I give it up, only to try again later. I suppose there is some value in continuing to try, but sometimes I'm not sure.
Some of these efforts are merely to make me a wiser and more worldly person. In this I tend to have most of my success, as I have certainly succeded in reading much more over the past few years than I had in the past. I've also caught up on many films I had wanted to watch, and I am richer for the experience. Over the past several months I have read several histories and biographies, and gathered a deeper knowledge of the subjects at hand. Although I haven't achieved as much as I would have liked, I still feel I have benefitted greatly.
But other efforts are crucial if I am to continue to have a rich life well into the future. Anyone who knows me knows I am very overweight. Although its never too late to change, I will likely suffer serious medical issues if I don't start making some changes. It is an unfortunate weakness of mine, and the most crucical self improvement I need to make.
I'd like to say that i've finally turned a corner, and that this time I will truly commit myself to turning it around. However, that would be self-delusional, and I could do without the deception. I suppose I will make the necessary changes because they are needed, but at this moment I can't be sure. I'll just need to take it one day at a time.
Stay Tuned...
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